... focusing like that you get a sense of fulfillment. And xxx was able to take full advantage of this. That's why they made you train so hard. The harder the training, the greater the sense of fulfillment.
In a group like xxx your sense of Self steadily deteriorates. Things are forced on you from above and you're continually attacked for not accepting the status quo, not being devoted enough, and inevitably your spirit is broken.
They aren't all criminals, and some of them have truly pure hearts. I know many people like that andd I feel sorry for them. They don't fit into the system because they're not comfortable with it, or because they've been excluded from it.